In deserve of praise!
I saw this photo and it totally looked like celebration… which is what this post is going to be about! (and I think people only read posts when there are pictures… or are more inclined to)
SO, for the past two weeks, I have been studying ochem, life science, and physics like my life depended on it. Since I am taking lecture notes for my ochem professor, I have been keeping up and studying for it consistently- going to tutoring sessions, asking questions after class, you name it. I didn’t understand why people didn’t like ochem because I thought it was pretty fun and all it required was a little memorization. Friday comes around and I had back to back ochem and physics midterms with a one hour gap in-between. I totally thought I had ochem in the bag and I was somewhat nervous for physics because I’ve never been good at it. Plus, I spent most of my time studying for ochem that there just weren’t enough hours in a day. I walked in to ochem, sat in the front row and reviewed my notes quickly before the hour started. Papers handed out. Ready. Begin. I worked frantically and solved all the problems as fast as I could- knew most of the concept but suddenly, I heard “Time’s up” UGH. WHAT?! I was so devastated that I ran out of time. :( I walked out of there with my pride hurt and wondering what I did wrong. Okay. One hour to pull myself together and go in for physics. Round 2. I waited outside the lecture hall and read through my notes, finalized my equations sheet, and listened to others talk about what they expect. I just kept telling Him how I really needed to do well this quarter to pull up my GPA and I’ve been sacrificing so much- don’t I deserve it?? I was so broken earlier that week… I couldn’t take it anymore! I put my notes aside and just started reading Deuteronomy and it just hit me- Deuteronomy 9. Not because of our righteousness but because of His. Walked into the lecture hall and the professor told us that we should look over the 3 problems before starting to see which one we wanted to tackle first. I glanced at the first one- Uhh… what is this?! Problem two… just gets worse… ugh. I started back at problem 1 and couldn’t get much further than knowing which equation to use. Skip to problem 3. same thing. Go back to 1 and force myself to calm down, pray, and begin. Seriously, it was a miracle. I don’t know how I even managed to finish the test let alone have extra time to double check my work and walk out 10 minutes early… did I do it all wrong??Yesterday I got back my ochem score and was not to happy. High class average and barely did above that. Sigh :/. The whole day I kept reasoning with myself and calculating points to see what I needed to get on the next midterm. I wasn’t thankful. Today in physics, I was so nervous about getting my exam back. During lecture I kept wondering if it really was Him or if I just screwed up big time. I either finished it quickly because I was ignorant or… I don’t know. Could it be? I couldn’t believe it. “A” with NO curve. uhhh… God are you serious?! is this a joke?! This has NEVER happened in the history of my physics classes. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU (with a thank you dance) for miracles. :) And I was reminded of Deuteronomy 9.
Not by might.
Nor by will.
Nor by studying late nights or refining my skills.
But through you, for you, to you glory is found. Goodness is found.
Grace is found. Grace- unmerited favor that rains down.
